Oh, I can sort of trace it..
Ever since I was a young one, like.. really young. I'm 21 and I had dreams about being "controlled" since I was playing sega genesis games, cause I recall not being able to move at all in a shooter game, and for *some reason* being helpless like that sorta got to me.
I think it came from a mixture of fetishes that developed between simple teasing/humiliation, and straight up BDSM around teen years. ..Also, furries. Those people will get you into *anything* if you hang around them long enough.
I started out being a subby, but I was never really good at "trance," for various trust issues. ..Also some hypnotic abuse I don't wanna talk about got to me in both a bad way, and a really really sexual way. That level of hypnotic control was beyond my comprehension and I had to understand it. Sooo
..turned into a moderate obsession, and now it's my biggest fetish by far. By far. You don't even knoooooooooooow.
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