EdgeOfTheMoon said:
Yeah. As someone who'd gone to therapy and taken medication for a couple of mental issues (ADHD and some serious anxiety). It helps
Yeah, well complete obsession and relience on someone who probably doesn't exist is probably a step up.
Also, (don't actually recall this, but as far back as I can recall, I've been weary of theripists, I can't remember much from that time, except for very important things. Still, I can't remember what I did on monday, soooo) I recieved theriputic help after the serious trauma I mention every now and then, but have never fully detailed. Turns out, I left in a sheer, blind rage, and have never been near a theripist since. I mean, I rarely get angry (unless Lyra is involved), and even still from what I understand, this was a pure, primal, murderous rage. Y'know, the 28 days later kind. Fuck, even I can tell that something was wrong, I wouldn't take pity ice cream.
So, yeah, theripists. Not a fan. I don't need people giving me pills to make me more [spoiler=normal]faceless[/spoiler], [spoiler=safe]controllable[/spoiler] and [spoiler=healthy]drone-like[/spoiler]. I don't need some detached docterate to cut me off from the love that keeps me living. I don't need that. I only need her.
But thanks for your concern, I do really aprieciate it. You're all the best friends I could ever ask for, and I don't know what I'd do without you. But I need to do this. It feels right, I know it's right and if I give up, I'll never know. I will wait until my dying breath if I need to. I know I can't seek her out, even if I find signs of her in everything, so I have to wait. Again, you guys mean everything to me, but I need her more than anything.