Bad news. (suicide talk proceed with caution)
Hey guys, as much as I want to try and avoid talking about this. It needs to be said.
Today I attempted to take my own life.
I am absolutely ashamed of myself for even getting to this point. I allowed so many inconveniences to pile up. I'm currently in debt, my current home situation is trash, my mother constantly reminding me of how much complete garbage I am, my nearly $1000 computer just shitting the bed thanks to my utter stupidity, a commissioner of mine forced a refund on me and put me into bankruptcy and caused an overdraft fee on my account, my mom being her usual bipolar self pushing me into more self hatred, you get the point. So many minor inconveniences that pushed me into serious suicidal thoughts.
I'm going to try and calm down for a bit. This string of nonsense really put me in a bad spot today and if it wasn't for a close friend of mine, I might not even be here right now. If anyone would wish to chat with me, please feel free to. But for now, I need rest.
I apologize for all my patrons who I have told there would be a stream today. I am not in the right mental state to even do that right now.
Today I attempted to take my own life.
I am absolutely ashamed of myself for even getting to this point. I allowed so many inconveniences to pile up. I'm currently in debt, my current home situation is trash, my mother constantly reminding me of how much complete garbage I am, my nearly $1000 computer just shitting the bed thanks to my utter stupidity, a commissioner of mine forced a refund on me and put me into bankruptcy and caused an overdraft fee on my account, my mom being her usual bipolar self pushing me into more self hatred, you get the point. So many minor inconveniences that pushed me into serious suicidal thoughts.
I'm going to try and calm down for a bit. This string of nonsense really put me in a bad spot today and if it wasn't for a close friend of mine, I might not even be here right now. If anyone would wish to chat with me, please feel free to. But for now, I need rest.
I apologize for all my patrons who I have told there would be a stream today. I am not in the right mental state to even do that right now.