This could have gone in either alignment of vent thread, but I'm putting it here because it had a happy ending
Basically, really tough day of class today- i went in early to work on my labs, but due to an unexplained reason, my computer wasn't doing what the instructions said it should do to complete the assignment, which is one of my bigger anxiety-triggers (Instructions say A, but reality shows B, to put it simply)
So in class proper, it's the one day of the semester where we talk about macs, so me being the only mac expert in class, i figure it'll be my day to shine
then it takes me 3 different machines to find one that works, because the never-used macs in the storage room are in various states of dissaray, and the one that finally works has its settings all out of whack
my lab partner's too busy watching the NFL draft thing or whatever (I don't follow football) to help me with the work, meanwhile i'm in sensory overload due to all the people talking around me
and it hits me- the assignment we're doing- it didn't even need a mac, it could have been done at home, over the weekend at my leisure, so long as I had a web browser and google, meanwhile the 2 other assignments we need done by tuesday either require 2 people to do it, or require a machine running linux (neither of which i have at home, but easily can do in the classroom), so I'm like, what was the point of wasting our time in such an inefficient way?
So i shambled home like i usually do, sent my mom a text saying how rough a day I had, and to my surprise, she sends me $150 so I can order a pizza and something to cheer myself up- i kinda feel like it's better to save the rest of it for when I need it, but damn, appreciate your moms, people